Before I dive into this post, I realize my blog is kinda funky to read on desktops these days. Apparently I messed up the coding and have spent WAY too much time trying to figure out how to fix it. I need to hire someone who can help! Thanks for your patience as I navigate my way through that; it may be a little while.
Now onto the good stuff. The words I need to write for myself to get through a challenging time and I will totally encourage you to do the same.
What I’m looking forward to after the pandemic has calmed down:
- Hugging. Even just typing the word I get teary-eyed. Thinking about hugging my family and friends makes my heart want to both break and leap out of my chest at the same time. I am such an affectionate person so not being able to hug and touch right now is SO very hard for me.
- Being with my family. I haven’t seen my family in THREE weeks. I miss them all so DANG much. Our parents are used to seeing my kids on a weekly basis. I can’t wait until we can all just be together again.
- Social gatherings with friends. Even hanging outside with the neighbors right now is challenging because the kids don’t understand the 6-foot concept. How are we supposed to manage that? Anyone have tips? The little ones just don’t get it.
- The GYM. Three days a week I would take the littles to the childcare at the gym and I would have “me” time for two hours; workout, emails, work, etc. This played a huge role in my mental health. I am still trying to find the new balance and somehow work some mental health time into my days. I have been waking up early to either let my creative juices flow on the blog, or walk on the treadmill, but I could a use little more as could Dana.
- Not being fearful of going places. We legit have to avoid each other like the plague, because, well. For friendly midwesterners this one is tough. We are nice people. We like to hold the doors for each other, knock around a weather joke, and just be friendly. We can still be friendly of course, just from a safe distance. I know it will be a while before we can chill a bit on the anti-bacterial and wipes, but it doesn’t mean I’m not looking forward to that day! I have my anatomy scan next week and I am honestly pretty nervous to have to be out in public, something I never thought I would say.
- Travel. I am in denial that my long-awaited trip to go see my GF Diane in Arizona is more than likely going to have to be canceled. It is at the end of April and I still haven’t been able to face it. I guess I’m hoping for a miracle. I have been looking forward to seeing my girl and spending the weekend with her in the sun. I even bought a new swimsuit.
- The boys (and myself) getting back to a normal routine. School, gym with mom, going to grandma and grandpa’s, and just having the freedom to go ANYWHERE! The zoo, the library, the parks…oh it will be so incredibly amazing.
I realize this list could go on for a while. I am going to hang on to all of these thoughts about what I am looking forward to after this nightmare has boiled over. I have to. You have to. I was listening to a video from Mel Robbins (if you don’t follow her yet, you absolutely should), and her words are what inspired this post. She said to think about the future, and even a date if you can, and imagine what you will be doing at that time.
We can’t change what is happening now, but we can make the most of the situation. It has been inspiring to see people reaching out to one another and trying to life each other up; helping where they can, even if that is simply a positive comment or hearts in the window.
Being home with my babies 24/7 has been totally exhausting, but when I feel frustrated I remind myself of how lucky I am to get to spend this extra time with them. This reminder comes into play alllllll day long because I have lots of tough moments.
I am enjoying getting creative with dinners. My neighbors and I have been sharing our dinner ideas with each other via snapchat and it makes me SO happy.
I am so thankful for Facetime and Zoom, keeping us all connected on a more intimate level.
I am thankful that my job is allowing me to work from home, something that was pretty much a “not a chance” in the past.
I am thankful for all of my family and friends who keep me smiling on a daily basis.
I am thankful I have a safe home, with clean water, food, warmth, and internet. =)
I am thankful for my favorite fitness instructor at the gym, who is providing fitness classes to her people via Zoom.
I am thankful that I can let my emotions out.
And of course, I am thankful for all of the people who are keeping our world up and running and who put themselves at risk every day to help us all get through this.
This post boils down to this: focus on gratitude, positivity, and making the most of this situation. I will continue to do it for myself as hard as it may be some days, and I think you should too. We are in this together, and we will get through this together.
I love you all.